Graphic Design Is My Passion

You've probably all heard about this, but the world is sort of ending. It's pretty fucked up and sad but there we are.

One of the main things I thought of when I thought about if I would accept this study place or not was if I could deal with the absolute pointlessness of still pursuing a career in making pretty pictures on a screen. Sure, I can think that I'll be the one to make graphics for some epic game that will be an instant classic, with true artistic value, meaningful themes and an over all positive impact on the world and its adoring fanbase. But it's unlikely.

If I had to name the second most inane thing to devote your life to right now it would be either brand design for MLM schemes or anything to do with mobile games. (Anything having to do with design, sales and manufacturing jet skis always wins). On worse days I'm just horrified by video games in general, even the "good ones" seeming like this massive waste of resources that won't leave anything of value behind. But free-to-play mobile games are the absolute bane of my existence. Terrarium:Garden Idle is everything wrong with the world. Growing actual plants is a much more idle activity that you'll get long lasting satisfaction from.

I tried just living without wasting resources, but I'm too neurotic to live like that. Like sure, I can not eat meat - but it's impossible to live without consuming anything. For me, right now, trying to have as small an impact as possible is incompatible with living a good life. What is the use of giving up all of the internet because it wastes electricity? Is the minuscule positive impact on the environment worth the loneliness and seclusion?

There's a server somewhere running, a physical machine using electricity, storing all this, storing everything forever. All of this digital trash. This blog!

I'm not smart enough to become anything useful like a scientist, and on the other hand I'm not going to clean things and take care of old people until I have to - I'll know how to do all that when it's time. I've done this... this creative thing for some time now. Used resources for this.

So I don't know. I guess I'll just march on like everyone else. Learn to compartmentalize like an adult. Be actually interested in current web design trends, announcements for new strategy games, how to shade nice hair, write a scene, see new Pixar films, what's on TV today and hey are they still working on that Google Glass thing?

For anyone experiencing similar existential tread, extinction sadness and a sense of futility, I recommend medication. Like basic lowish daily dose of an SSRI or SNRI should do the trick.

Just to mellow things out a bit.